i give up, i give up
these are my dreams, these are my beliefs
i want to trade them in for something real
and just let it go, let it go
2.I don't fear what you are
Because you're only dangerous to what is weak
Clinging to the stories you create
You make a living off of souls that bleed
Another dotted line
3.But now I hear you found somebody new
And that I never meant that much to you
To hear that tears me up inside
And to see you cuts me like a knife
4.Such beautiful dignity in self-abuse
5.Its proof to show that I bleed for this
And i'd cut myself to shame,
But to get to know this macicist
Who has stolen my first name.
6.We've gone too far
From pride to shame
We're trying so hard
We're dying in vain
We're hopelessly blissful and blind
It's all we are
We want it all
With no sacrifice
7.tell me, doctor, how to shake
a waking nightmare
that is only worse when I am sleeping..
8.Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
You are my only, my only one.
9.Look at me now,
I’m on the tracks
with my back towards
the last train leaving town
10.God, i must be mother fucking dreaming
& i can rest in peace
and atleast cease to be
cease to see those things in me
that make me wanna cease to breathe
and cease to need and
cease to feed,
the sickness thats in me
this is all that I can be.
11.if youre gonna rip my heart out,
could you use a knife thats dull
and rust in color,
once i die, there will be no way
that you can cover that scar.
it's hard, i know.
12. I've reached the top of this ladder,
but what did it matter?
it's on the wrong wall.
13. I'll try to describe the way that it felt to
tell my own mother her kid is a failure.
her heart is too cold to love anyone but herself.
it's like stabbing an icicle straight through your chest.
your whole body shivers as it coarses your blood.
and your quivering throat keeps choking on those words.
mama i tried a thousand times
i'm frozen to the core.
your kids a glorious mess,
who wrecks anything she adores.
14. I'll be fine, i swear
I'm just gone beyond repair
15. I talked to the angels,
they can't make it out tonight.
They crossed their hearts, and
hoped we'd make it out alive.
We're going down..
There's nothing that can stop this now.
Captain, Captain :: We are sinking.
can't you see that everyone's screaming?
we're going down, we're going down.
When I die, will you close my casket..
Make it glass ;; so I can see who cared.
16. I just wanna say good bye, Disappear with no one knowing
I don't wanna live this lie, smiling to the world unknowing
I don't want you to try, you've done enough to keep me going
I'll be fine, I'll be fine, I'll be fine for the very last time
17. I go about my business, I'm doin fine
Besides what would I say if I had you on the line
Same old story, not much to say
Hearts are broken, everyday.
I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead
I try and tell myself it'll be all right
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight
18. Here lies clarity in a perfect blade
comprised of perfect steel.
The perfect blade,
glows a perfect white
against the perfect lines
from this perfect night.
I'm the perfect picture of complacency,
and that's all I feel.
I am a monster clothed in crimson sleeves
and perforated lines where my wrists should be.
A warehouse full of workers scramble like a pack of
bewildered wolves as my world turns black,
and I fall
19. Then she whispered..
How could you do this to me?
20. She drowns herself until the images erase
But the skin is bruised all along her thighs
Nightmares repeat refrain the memories of pain
The mental photographs haunting all the time
Where the silence strips me bare,
and your body pins me down.
I've never been so scared to breathe,
afraid to make a sound.
Just kick and scream, bite and bleed,
and make believe it's all a dream.